Is Lame Duck Hood really necessary? I mean really. Is anyone particularly productive after they have given their notice? Does any employer really let them be?
This really, really, SUCKS.
I sit at my desk, and have maybe a couple of hours of productive work to do. And then I sit. And eat too much. And I fantasize about leaving and I try not to gossip too much because that would be so unbecoming.
To shake it up a bit, today I went wine shopping. I made something up so that I could come in late tomorrow.
Three weeks and counting. It is feeling like an interminably long time. My employer has to feel the same way about this. Can’t we just call it a day…wave a white flag… be done?
Monday, October 4, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Giving Notice
I may have quit my job... but I still have to show up there. Sort of. Four weeks of notice is a very, very long time.
I am in that never never land between present and not present. I sit there. But my opinions no longer matter, I have little motivation to do more than is minimally required of me, and folks won't really even talk to me because I am an "outsider" now.
At least I have a fairly big office. And a computer. And I am reasonably comfortable with my own company. I have already cleaned out my desk, gone through my electronic files and improved my sodoku score.
Not sure what tomorrow brings, but I am not rushing in, and I am leaving early. What are they gonna do? Fire me?
Friday, October 1, 2010
Giddy
I am still giddy. Giddy about being unemployed. Giddy about being the entrepreneur of my own life. Giddy about being able to take a risk. People at work are jealous of me and tell me that I even look different.
I want to enjoy this feeling, because I imagine that it will be tested.
But I've got to tell you, the way I feel now, I may never again turn my life over to a company that decides where I need to be and how long I need to be there, whether or not I can eat at my desk, how much vacation I can take and how much time off I am allowed. I am creating a life where I am my own human resources department! Love it.
I will surely make short term and temporary commitments to employers (maybe I'll substitute teach? Or take a holiday job at a department store?). And who knows, I may even take on some freelance work. But making a career commitment of indefinite duration? I am going to think long and hard about that before I do it again.
One of the things that tied me to one company for a long time was the pension benefit. It seemed reckless to walk away both from a regular income (in the present) and a guaranteed income (in the future). But heck. My pension benefit was frozen this year so I am no longer impacting my future benefits by leaving my job, and I believe I'll find new ways to make money in the present. We'll see if that pans out.
Beyond all of that, I am giddy because my Dad just got released from the hospital. He has to go to inpatient rehab for awhile, but he is moving in the right direction. I managed to email my parents that I am leaving my steady paycheck (wimpy, I know), and got some words of support back. I am not sure there would have been quite as much support if they weren't so distracted!
I want to enjoy this feeling, because I imagine that it will be tested.
But I've got to tell you, the way I feel now, I may never again turn my life over to a company that decides where I need to be and how long I need to be there, whether or not I can eat at my desk, how much vacation I can take and how much time off I am allowed. I am creating a life where I am my own human resources department! Love it.
I will surely make short term and temporary commitments to employers (maybe I'll substitute teach? Or take a holiday job at a department store?). And who knows, I may even take on some freelance work. But making a career commitment of indefinite duration? I am going to think long and hard about that before I do it again.
One of the things that tied me to one company for a long time was the pension benefit. It seemed reckless to walk away both from a regular income (in the present) and a guaranteed income (in the future). But heck. My pension benefit was frozen this year so I am no longer impacting my future benefits by leaving my job, and I believe I'll find new ways to make money in the present. We'll see if that pans out.
Beyond all of that, I am giddy because my Dad just got released from the hospital. He has to go to inpatient rehab for awhile, but he is moving in the right direction. I managed to email my parents that I am leaving my steady paycheck (wimpy, I know), and got some words of support back. I am not sure there would have been quite as much support if they weren't so distracted!
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