Today was a cry in the shower kind of day. A day that takes you by surprise, overwhelming you with mourning and confusion, grief, guilt, loss, uselessness.
That kind of day.
It was an IMAX movie with my nephews that set me off: a simple nature story of orphaned animals being cared for, loved and then released into the wild. I know I don't have to explain the connections. You get it.
There are pieces of my life that are a horror story. I have lived through a nightmare come to life. I know I am not unique in that, and usually I am resilient enough to really celebrate being alive while attempting to seek out and live some sacred purpose.
Today I don't feel worthy enough to have been given a purpose, let alone strong enough to live one out. It's a temporary feeling; I know I will emerge from this. But it is my reality today. My entire reality.
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